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Monday, January 16, 2006

Currently Listening
How to Survive Chance
By Pale
Goodbye Trouble
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Wow, it has been more than half a year. So first of all, Happy New Year everyone.

This weekend got me thinking a lot so I thought I should start writing entries again.
Christopher broke up with me on Friday night. I was a little prepared but it still isn't easy. So I was thinking who can I talk to know? Who would be there for me? And so many people came to my mind that I was overwhelmed. I was crying more about the fact that there are so many who are close to me than about Chris leaving me.
I realized that it is not about
me, not about me being sad and not about me needing compassion it is about them, my loved ones. And as long as they are around me, no matter in which way or relationship, everything will be ok.
The time of crying, punching my pillows, having no appetite and jogging isn't over yet but it will be soon and I'll get through this. Years ago I thought I wouldn't survive if someone broke up with me but today I know better. And the reason for this are first of all my mom, my family and my friends.
Life is about so much more and there are so many new opportunities every day and you just have to reach for them and let them lead you to a better life.
"It's the ones you can call up at 4 am that really matter" Marlene Dietrich once said. But it's even more about the ones you can call up but you know you don't need to because their hug and the understanding look in their eyes counts more than words and waiting for that until the next day to cry in their arms is not even a bad thing. So there is a quote that is even more true :


 "
Friendship needs no words ... " (Dag Hammarskjold)




Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Currently Listening
(What's The Story) Morning Glory?
By Oasis
Wonderwall
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It has been a while....
Unfortunately summer break is almost over. On monday school begins and it will be my last year. I'm looking forward to see everyone again and to hear about everything that has happened in the last 6 weeks.
Vacation in Turkey was just awesome. It was sunny and hot all the time and we had a lot of fun seeing Turkey (Alanya and Antalya), learning about their culture, but also going out (a lot of awesome clubs!!) and just laying on the beach.
Other than that I enjoyed the free time that I spent with my friends, my family and Chris.
Once again I realized how much my loved ones mean to me and that I should think more about the way I behave towards them and that I should care more about them.
My brother had a tumour which had to be cut out of his brain. It has been a rough time but I am happy that he is still the same as before. He was so lucky that everything turned out so good and I am thankful for that. But on the other hand I can't understand why he had to suffer so much. He is one of the most genuine, sincere and faithful people I've ever met. Well, I guess if God would take control of everything we wouldn't be free and independet people so that is just the way life goes.
It's one and a half more weeks til I travel to Tuscany! I'm so excited!
Everything is fine for now but that gets me thinking even more.
Love to all my friends and God bless all of you !


Thursday, June 16, 2005

Currently Playing
Smack Smash
By Beatsteaks
Monster
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Time to update....

Hurricane was just awesome !! I didn't have so much fun for a long time.

We arrived Friday at 6 pm so I didn't get to see Boysetsfire and Turbonegro unfortunately but at least I was able to hear them.

Friday:

Kettcar - Wir sind Helden - Oasis

And in between I watched Rammstein at the screen.

Saturday:

Underoath - Flogging Molly (Awesome!!) - Millencolin - Slut - Beatsteaks (even more awesome!) - Phoenix - Audioslave - System of a Down (Rock on!)

Sunday:

Money Brother - La Vela Puerca - Ska-P - 3 Doors Down - Beck (on the screen) - Queens of the Stone Age - Die Ärzte

 

The only problem was I fell directly on the first day when Wir sind Helden played and my leg hurt all weekend. But I ignored it most of the time.

I was crowd surfing (well, I only wanted to sit on the shoulders of my friend but some guys misunderstood my intention so in half a second I saw myself being carried forward) when Beatsteaks played and the 10 secs I was up there I was filmed and shown on MTV. YAY. So when I came to school on Monday everyone came up to me "You were on TV!" Now I just have to find someone who has got a tape of the entire concert.

The bands I enjoyed most were Wir sind Helden (although I fell), Beatsteaks, Flogging Molly, System of a Down and Queens of the Stone Age. I was surprised that Oasis didn't rock that much.

It did rain a bit but it wasn't that bed. Our tents survived. I missed having a shower ( You had to wait about 2-3 hours to get a shower!!) but well... I took one directly when we arrived at home and that was one of the most wonderful showers I had in my life. We arrived at 5 am Monday morning so I went to school a bit later.

I really do appreciate Ravioli and other canned Pasta but for the next few months I am sick of it. On Sunday we had to eat them cold because our gas camp cooker exploded. One chair and two bags burned but fortunately nobody got hurt. My airmatress and my sleeping bag were soaking because the orange juice spilled over them but as I was lucky, it happened on the last day.

Our "neighbours" were very friendly and we got to know a lot of new friends. I even met a couple of people I know (which is pretty unlikely at a festival with 60 000 people running around).

My voice is coming back step by step and today people even understand what I'm saying  On Monday it was funny but by now I can't hear any more jokes about it.

AWESOME WEEKEND !

I can't wait for summer break !! There is only one more exam left. The sun is shining an in one month I'll be laying at the beach in Turkey. YAY! And in three months I'll finally be 18.

Well, this is enough for now.

Take care.


Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Currently Playing
One by One
By Foo Fighters
Times like these
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The weather is wonderful, I have fun with my friends and I'm back together with Chris. So I should be very happy....  Am I? I'm not sure.

The weekend was wonderful, the only sad thing was the funeral of my mom's cousin who was my godfather. He died of lung cancer. That really got me thinking.

Otherwise I enjoyed the weekend. No school on Thursday and Friday and as it was really hot, we went to the lake swimming and I got a nice tan. Friday night we went to a club where we met new people. That was a fun time. On Saturday our French friend Claire came and we celebrated her birthday. It gave me an opportunity to refresh my French. I forgot so much and it is such a beautiful language. I'm thinking about visiting my French exchange partner this summer. I have to call her. Sunday we went to a hockey game which was quite interesting. I've never watched one before. And the rest of my weekend I spent studying for my English test yesterday. It sucked. I was well prepared but the statistics we had to analyze were very confusing. Oh well, it's gonna be ok, I guess.

School is actually not that bad right now. I get along with everyone very well and it's fun to fool around during the breaks. Only two more tests next week and I'm done with that part.

Yay, in less than two weeks I'll be at the Hurricane Festival ! One weekend full of good music, party and friends! I'm excited !

Soon I'll have my own apartment !! Yay ! Well, I'll still be living at my parent's but it will be less stressful if I also have a place in the town where my school is so I won't have to take the bus home everyday when I have long school days. Chris is not so happy about that, but it's only a 20 minutes drive. It's the apartment above my grandma's one. It's my mom's house anyway. I can't wait to renovate !

Well, I have to go now...

God's bless.

 


Thursday, May 19, 2005

I'm stressed out.

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concentrate.

And the weirdest thing about it, I Don't Know Why !

 



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